I woke up in the dark,
Sweating with fright,
I really did not know
I was looking for the light
I knew I needed something
that this world - it can not give,
So my challenge now was
where to go from here?

I searched the Churches, religions all
I read a hundred books that were spiritual,
They all told me that I had a soul,
So where was mine?
I must have lost it some time
Or maybe was it stole?
My innocence gone, I was not whole
My tears fell down in the reality of it all

I searched within, all I found was pain
Many dark and gloomy nightmares
So many memories that were not
"Happily ever after" like they promised
It was all a lie and illusion
And now in this torrent of confusion
I try to make sense of it all
Picking up the pieces of "the puzzle of my life"

The years passed by, some in a daze
But I always knew
I would find my way
I never gave up looking for my soul
And I realise now, it was worth it all
The tears, the pain, the nightmares too
But they have all gone now
and I feel like new

I found a light and found a spin,
An energy of force that came from within
So great was it, I could not resist
Out poured my pain, transmuted into bliss
Compelled, expelled, oozing from every orifice
The feeling inside was so profound
Not sure at first what I had found

From the moment we are born
We are living in a dream world
Where Demons and Angels tread together
Neither seen by the other
Wake up the love that dwells within
And we will live in heaven forever
This is the treasure beyond time
Eternity, infinity, a love sublime.

Jennifer